He who is silent is understood to
consent. I faced up and made noise against my weaknesses. I no longer consented
to what relegated me to being the loser. I had these three deep seated and
jealously guarded fears. I had earlier
made a decision. I agreed to myself never to raise any argument on the subject
of my own weaknesses. ‘What are those 3 fears?’ You may be driven to ask. Yes,
number one on the list is vanity, secondly a tendency for prodigality and
thirdly a contentment with simplicity. I do want what is good. I guess this is
every one’s story. I want to show the
goodness of life and treasures. I know hard work is fruitful. I have always
driven myself so hard to achieve a better life. It is a lonely path. It is not
taken by many. I did give up when I realized I was alone in this. I slackened
the grip and mentality towards work. This was my undoing. I have accumulated some
assets in my life but I have ended up giving them away to supposedly badly off
friends. I later turned to them in my times of need and they remarked: ‘why did
he not save his money for such bad times?’ I could have remained on the very
hard roads of life’s toil. I gave up so much. I discouraged myself from
achieving more.
That stopped when I stopped
consenting to failure. I stopped giving in to fear. I made noise. I discovered
what I could be. I immediately designed and embarked on a plan of action to
re-educate myself. I crossed out the word ‘quit’ from my action verbs. I went
deep into myself and brought out my fears. I decided to surround myself with
success. This is my re-birth. I faced anything that belittles me. I set myself
on a path of knowledge. I knew I was held back by what I decided not to learn.
I knew so much yet knew so little. I chose to know myself. I chose not to
consent to silence. I chose not to acknowledge defeat, fear, ridicule and
belittling. There is uniqueness in every one as long as we all know we are capable
of being better. I am unique and different. I looked into myself with honesty.
I am full of life and am around loving people. I got to see this because I made
decisions that galvanize us more as we continue interacting. I do appreciate the people I come into
contact on a daily basis. They appreciate me too. I am conscious, I am part of
them and I matter to them. I continued
interacting with them as I continued on the path to self actualization. I shared my dreams with them. They were
honest with me. They guided me as I continued being open to them. I admitted I
needed their help. I would give them guidance too. I worked consistently and persistently. This is what made me who I am. This now defines me. The world inside me was cleansed. I decided to make a new garden in me. I make
sure that I listen to myself, evaluate myself and reduce all sensual reports,
experiential cues and visceral stimuli into a unified common purpose and goal. I
am true to myself above all. Truth
follows as night does day. I am sure then I cannot be false to any other
person. I decided not to be silent lest I am understood to consent to failure.
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